Bad(ish) News

Hey guys - quick update before practice - I WILL be blogging later, probably from the bathtub. YAY

Quote Thursday is being postponed indefinitely, until I get more quotable things from my friends. This may not happen until I get back home, considering the very sad predicament I'm in with my "friends" here.

But maybe not - my two lovely littles may provide some quotes as soon as next week!

Anyway, thanks for your patience. More beauty reviews and diet stories to come. I gotta get my waistline in check before Halloween - maybe these freakin boys should give me less candy (except not actually at all haha thanks guys :D).

xoxo, hshb,
candy

sorry guys, #disappointment

I'm super depressed/busy cause I'm going back to school on Saturday. So no Quote Thursday today. Expect a short hiatus while I get over this, at least until I get back to school.

Sorry again ):
hshb,
candy

peace, quiet, regret, regeneration

This is going to be on the serious side guys, no funny Candice tonight. Not even a funny picture. OK, maybe one at the end.

As I'm writing this, I'm laying on the most comfortable mattress in the world, staring at the most beautiful sea in the world, and feeling pretty much the worst I've felt in weeks. I have so much regret about mistakes I've made, wrong things I've done, secrets I've made & told. It's so weird, because recently I felt like I finally came to terms with some of the darkness in my life, and I'm sticking to that. I'm a person - I have flaws, and I kind of love those flaws, and I don't want to change them anymore. And I especially don't want a guy who would try or want to change them. 

When I love (whether it's my family, friends, or otherwise), I love fully. I know your flaws, and I love your flaws, and I love you. I don't want to change you, because then you wouldn't be the person that I love anymore. Just be you, and do you, and as long as you don't step on my toes (figuratively...and literally), we're going to be just fine. We'll make it through this crazy life together.

That's finally how I'm feeling about myself, but I'm having problems letting go of my past mistakes at the moment. It's just hard to remember how things exactly happened, and it's killing me. The oceanic setting here is giving me some peace and time to think over things, and I've realized that I really need to let some bad things go.

So, my next project is...confession. Yeah, that's right, in a real Catholic church with real Catholics and a priest and stuff. Jealous??????

I think then I can give some of my sadness a huge sigh of relief. [Yes I do believe in God, Jesus, Catholicism, and confession. Surprised? You're welcome.**] There's something that's just cathartic about telling someone with authority your bad things, and having them tell you officially that it's ok, The Big Guy forgives you, and we all make mistakes. So I'm going to test it out in a few weeks - until then, I'm giving bad things the back file space in my brain. 

I'll update you on if it works - if it doesn't, expect a couple posts on "How to Block Out Memories."

xoxo, hshb [maybe not??],
candy




**FUNNY PICTURE TIME TO LIGHTEN THINGS UP

#swaginmyrobe

#depressed



Too sad to show my face.

You guys, I've gained like 3.4 pounds over the weekend.

WHAT THE HELL. Like I know I had fun and threw my diet out the window, but this is not ok...just imagine how much weight I'll gain when I go to France for a week+!!!


So, I'm incredibly depressed over this, and I can't think of any cool shit to blog about today yet. Maybe things will pick up later when I go over to T's house.

Wish me luck on my diet today. ):